Sunday June 28th 2020
Coronavirus Cases: 10, 243, 858
Deaths: 504, 410
Recovered: 5, 553, 495
I never realized how uncomfortable I am around cops until today. I was driving home from my aunt’s house and my mom was driving in her car right next to me. I noticed a Sheriff in my rearview and my body tensed up. You might say that’s because I want to be obeying the law, but I think it’s because as a child of immigrants the police have always been this enigmatic all-powerful entity. They can either hurt or protect you, depending on who you are and what you’ve done. Now we’re releasing that sometimes there is no grey area. It is literally black and white. A black woman was burned alive. Trans women gunned down. Black men hanged from trees in public parks. Nothing is being done. Breonna Taylor’s killers are still loose. She did nothing wrong. She was in her own home, and she was still murdered.
Later three police cars from Laurel Park, an affluent community about 15 minutes away pulled into our empty parking lot after closing and started talking to this homeless man. It’s second nature now to start recording with our phones. We turned down the R&B we were blasting and eyed the police through the windows. Then another car. And another. Five cars for one man, and not one officer knocked on the building with five teens and young adults alone to tell us what was happening. Finally, when it was time to leave. We were kind of frightened. I imagined a shootout would begin or I would be told to get on the ground. I’d obey, but what’s to stop them from killing me anyway? Our resident white boy asked if we could leave and they said there was an incident at the local McDonalds and they were getting eyewitness testimony. A female officer asked my coworker, an Asian woman, if we had been scared by the ruckus. She said yes. We left in a big huddle, while one lone Sheriff sat in his car before pulling out of our parking lot. Our white boy said, “they’re just cops.” But we just looked at each other, because it’s not always that simple.
We bought tiny chairs for kids to sit in at work. It’s so cute.